So it seems I am not the only one who has a billion papers to write.
I feel slightly different today about school. In some ways I am glad that it is over and I am also sad. In some ways I feel like I havent really learned what i wanted to. I dont feel like I was challenged. I mean challenged in the way were I learn something usefull. Not some stupid crap that I am going to forget in a week. Not some paper I am going to stress myself out about and delete it after I get my grade. I wish school was different. School is supposed to prepare you for the “Real world”. Not the one you see on MTV, but the one were you give up on your dreams. Its like you have to accept “reality” and get some stupid job that sucks. Its easy to say that you are a writer or a superhero or whatever. It really comes down to if you are going to actually do it.
What do you want to be?
I am not going to give up on my dreams.
Alot of people seem to be living a life of lies.
Is this how you envisioned your life?
Is this what you wanted to be?
I wonder if i could go back and talk to myself if I would be happy? Would I be mad at myself? Would I be proud of myself? I will never know, because as of this moment, I cant go back in time. But I can remember. I wont forget my dreams. I will live them.
-n
We Were Sick 